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Guys, I don't use LJ anymore. for anything really. I update my life thanks to a little blue birdy who sometimes lifts a whale.
www.twitter.com/muskieratboi :P |
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Nah. i'm not gonna let any of this crap get the better of me. you can grab me by the neck and throw me to the floor, you can yell and scream and galavant all you want, you can throw all manner of debts at me. you xan starve me. but I will persevere.
mark my words.
I will NEVER back down. I may cry. I will get lonely. I'll need, ask, and eventually get help for what I need to do. but I will never back down. I will never quit. you hear me world? I am NOT worried by your crap anymore. throw what you want at me! I'm not gonna back down. |
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I've been feeling a lot better since i've started these anti-depressants. it's a reallly low dosage, so I don't know wether it's the placebo effect or not, but I've been able to look up at the sky and not watch for the nuke to drop, or the giant asteroid or whatever. It's a comforting feeling.
I've managed to find some accommodation. It's a little complex, the way I need to make it work, but I should be able to stay here about a month or so if I just keep my mouth shut, which is all I need to pay off this fine and clear my debt. I also helped out my friend who i'm here with divert their pokie addiction into something alltogether more wholesome, but devious: Peggle. :P
I've also got a friend helping with gathering my things, which i'll pick up tomorrow.
Thanks for the support those few people have given me, and I apologise for any previous outbursts. Stress is rather hard on me. |
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Yeah. I'm out. I'm homeless. I've got about a half hour before this net cafe closes and I need to move to another one that charges 4 bucks an hour. I now have a criminal record because of a tantrum I threw.
(I lost my home, I lost two dear friends who betrayed me utterly, I thought I lost a dear, close friend of mine because I hurt him emotionally.
I don't.
React.
Well.
To.
Loss.
I guess I'm lucky I only broke a door.
Yes it was stupid. I wasn't myself at the time., I was distraught with worry and fear. I'm going to get help for this. It will not happen again.)
Regardless. I need somewhere to go. The only reason I haven't jumped ship and left for Sydney or Melbourne or Brissie is because I would lose my only source of income, or it would be drastically reduced.
I'm doing commissions for Coloring, to try and get some money to hold myself over till I'm okay again.
http://forums.furaffinity.net/showthread.php?t=43291 (some links to NSFW artwork.)
Anyone in Perth who gets this, call me. 0405 306 843.
Even if it's to say you can't help. The support from my friends, and being able to know who my friends really are, will be enough.
Thanks.
Current Mood:  crushed |
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Alpha version of the model is ingame and playable. all that's left is some serious modification. :P
( Pics and Link after the cut! ) |
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Finally got the test mesh of the arms animated, textured, and in UED4. Whoot!
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HOLY SHIT IT'S WORKING!
After about 3 days figuiring hot how the HECK to use the skin modifier, i've made plenty more progress!
( Pics after the cut ) |
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Learning some basic modelling and texturing systems for 3dsMax and UT3. I've decided to do Vectorman, cause he's old, unused, Obscure, and most of all, easy to do XD
Starting with an incredibly simple mesh. He's mostly spheres, but the Head, arms, and feet wil be redone once I figure out how to get him ingame. XD
( Screenshots after the break.. Careful, they're Big :P )Current Music: 07] Tao Orchestra.Final Fantasy Concert.One Winged Angel |
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Ugh..
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Mar. 8th, 2009 @ 12:10 pm
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Oky. after that MIND-Fuck, can someone recommend a comic book that reconstructs the particle accellerator put to the superhero genre and make me feel good about the world again?
Please?Current Mood:  apathetic Current Music: Chrono Cross - 107 Dream of the Shore Bordering Another World |
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Beginning without End
Now it's bright where you are\
And the people changed\
Does it matter now that we are all so strange?\
And in our darkest hour\
I give secret's flame\
Halt the world from being devoured in it's pain\
Strange..
( Spoilers after the cut. )Current Mood:  shocked Current Music: Smashing Pumpkins - The Beginning Is The End Is The Beginning |
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I'm putting out an open thing for Coloring requests. Give me lineart, you get it colored. no hassle. I'll do pretty much anything, though i'd prefer furry stuff, of course. clean-ish sketches are okay, too.
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Well, I guess it had to happen eventually.
I'm looking to move out in the next few weeks, for a medium term (probably about a year or so), until this new furry sharehouse that's in the works here gets built.
I've had some good times where I am, but things have been getting a little.. Tense with one of my housemates, (nothing big, just him trying to control every aspect of my life and threaten me with violence on regular occasion.. So, yeah.)
If anyone knows anyone.. about this kinda thing, give me a holler. :P
In other news, I've just finished installing Vista on my laptop. First time i've ever had a portable rig capable of handling it. Dual core laptops for teh win! :P
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Hrmm. Testing ScribeFire. Is it working? :P
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Hey guys. Having finally recovered from a bout of Apocalyptiphobia, Having gone off to Sydney and Brisbane, and then just finally arriving, I have this to say:
Phew.
Also:
FInally starting work on my preliminary fursuit. shouldn't take long to get it done up.. just need a little help.. any takers? |
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Lookin for Marko, Kittycat who went home with me after the furmeet. I didn't get any details! IM me sometime, i'd love to meet up again! |
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SFII! on VC! 800 Points! -Falls over from awesome- |
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http://www.crazysales.com.au/index.php?productID=1483
$23.25 for a 4GB MicroSDHC card. perfect for Flashcards. XD |
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Spent the night at a friend's place last night.
Got woken up by his nephew, a toddler, banging. on. the door. "Mummy... Mummy...!"
I was half asleep. I screamed. XD |
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